Turning the Page

Today marks a very important day for the rest of my life. As of 10 AM, eastern standard time, I have handed in my final project for my Freelance Production class. Now, this seems pretty simple to you, and that is fine, but this marks a reality I had never confronted before: I am going to graduate college.

Next week is finals and I only have an easy paper and a math exam and then a diploma.

I’m sure you are going “Well, this is normal, right?” It is. The normal progression is High School -> College -> Diploma. This wasn’t always the case for me and to have reached this point is just, well, I am at a loss for words. To understand why, I need to give a little history on myself.

I was always told I was a smart kid. I scored rather high on all of those middle school tests, rather well above average IQ, ect ect. I’m not saying this to brag, in fact I tend to think the opposite. I did well in school without really trying and coasted my way through high school. I thought I would be able to just coast my way through college applications and into a decent school.

Ohh how I was wrong.

I got rejected from every school I applied to. I ended up going to a community college for Computer Science. Computer science turned into Information Technology which turned into Psychology which turned into Liberal Arts which turned into General Studies which turned into me dropping out twice. I switched majors five times in three years before throwing my hands up in defeat.

After some “time off,” I just got sick of not getting anything done, being just a high school grad who dropped out. Three years of my life was gone with nothing to show for it. On a whim, I took a tour of the New England Institute of Technology for their video and audio production. I heard about the facilities, the teachers credentials, the equipment and I pretty much said “This is something I want to do.” So I enrolled and told myself “I am getting a bachelors degree or I have failed.” Even after I got a degree, it didn’t feel that way. Hell, I don’t even display my associates degree. It just didn’t feel real.

Now, here I am, at the end of my degree, graduating in a week and it is just beginning to set in. I handed in my final paperwork today and my teacher told me I was top three in my graduating class. Just blows my mind how I went from a dropout to the best in class. And now, it’s into the real world.

While this feeling is amazing, and believe me, I am fucking ecstatic, I now have to deal with a whole new set of fears. No more hiding behind the college student curtain, it is time to be a big boy. Need to search for a real job, unless my youtube channel really takes off (which I REALLY would love,) bills, apartments, houses, real life.

But for now, I am going to enjoy my victory. I worked hard and I earned it. What a great day.


And So It Begins

I’m not going to lie, I have started about four other blogs in the past and all of them ended up fading into obscurity. I always thought I would have something interesting to say or some deep meaningful profound epiphany. I was also somewhere around the age of sixteen to nineteen when I thought this. So, this time I come with a blog that has a purpose: Gaming. Still a broad term, nothing concrete with that but I like it.


I am going to assume you came here through a facebook, twitter, or youtube link so you can pretty much skip this section if you know who I am. For everyone else, hi. I’m tehcraz or just Craz. I prefer the latter, for the record. I’m a twenty five year old streamer and Let’s Player. I play video games, have decent commentary, and sometimes make people laugh enough to want to subscribe to me. I have been streaming over a year and recently started Let’s Playing seriously. I’m about to graduate with a bachelors degree in video and audio production (March 16 2012, about damn time,) and I love games with an almost unhealthy passion.

What This Blog Is About:

Now that the mandatory intro is out of the way, let’s get into the meat of it. The content. I’m going to be upfront about this, don’t expect extreme mathcraft about RPG stats, detailed diagrams depicting the fasted way to complete random FPS level, or high level insight into your favorite MOBA game (maybe bad level insight.) This blog is set up for my musings, ideas, random cool game footage, and ways to alert my fans, or random people on the net, to things I am doing. Take my ideas, frustrations, musings, strategies, ect ect, with a grain of salt because I never will claim to know the best way to do -anything-.

Making The Game

The only section that you can truly count on for consistent content is the “Making The Game” podcast. The podcast will be up weekly and it is a small project with my friends where we are coming up with ideas for a survival FPS game based in a desolate metropolis. We have one episode up already, which I will post in the appropriate section when I make it, and will continue to update every week as episodes come out.

La Fin

So, now you got a basic idea of the blog and all of that other fun stuff. Feel free to comment and all of that fun stuff people do on blogs. I’ll try to make sure this one stays updated with something atleast weekly.